inadequate at best

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

  1. Not adequate; lacking the quality or quantity required; insufficient for a purpose.
  2. (of a person) Unable to deal with a situation or with life: "inadequate to the task".
insufficient - unsuitable - inappropriate - unfit


feeling inadequate is probably the worst feeling in the whole entire galaxy. feeling like you're trapped in this bubble of so called "perfection". stuck in a mold of what you are expected to be. intimidated by people who strive to be exactly the person that everyone is counting on you to be.

i just really want to get out of here: out of this ignorance and judgement, expectations of this nonexistent perfection that everyone seems to believe exists. i'll never be even close enough to "perfect". never.


Tuesday, July 16, 2013

ya know that feeling?
the one when you feel, not empty...
because "i feel empty" is too poetic.
you don't feel poetic.
you don't feel like beautiful words with a deeper meaning.
you just feel a sort of hollow.
like if someone were to knock on your chest,
it would echo.
e c h o .
you're stuck in the same old.
there's nothin' making your heart go-
and even though you're just shy of 18 years young,
and you shouldn't need someone to make you feel special,
you kind of feel that you do.
or at least you want it.
you want someone,
someone out of the ordinary,
to be your best friend.
to look at you and admire everything about you.
even your quirks.
like the dimples by your eyes,
or that snort after you giggle.
someone to watch movies with,
to waste friday nights with.
someone to miss when you've been busy.
someone to make you feel at home every time you're with them,
even if you're miles away.
a best friend.
who accepts you for your faults.
for your past.
for your present.
and WANTS to be a part of your future.
you feel like everyone's found something to make them feel special-
but you haven't yet found that.
and you really want to.
remember when i said you don't feel poetic?
well maybe you do.
cause when you start thinking about if this "someone" were to exist,
you think you'd feel quite poetic about them.
poetic and full.
full of,
i don't even know what.
cause i've never been "full".
full of that unknown, mystery thing.
but again, i'm just shy of 18.
i'll get there.
i just wish everyone around me WASN'T there.
or at least,
i wish they didn't THINK they were.

it's a girl!

Hello bloggers and blog readers!
Tonight we had a fun little party at the LaComb house.
My cousin, Ellie, is pregnant with her first little baby. I'm so excited for her and I've loved watching her grow up, get married, get pregnant. She's such a good example to me and I look up to her so much. I really do consider her the big sister I never had. She's having a little girl, Kinley Mae, and is due in September. She'll give us the first opportunity to be aunts, great aunts, second cousins, and great grandparents. It's easy to say that Kinley Mae will be spoiled rotten.
We had a shower at my house tonight for Ellie and little Kinley and it was so fun. The decorations and the food were great, and the company was even better. I managed to capture some photos throughout the evening that I thought I'd share with y'all.

k for kinley mae

shot of the huggies cake that danielle made

jack was very proud of the tag he made :)

and of course, anna had to help with a warm welcome

how cute is she? like really.

my favorite picture...
abe was a smidge embarrassed as the only boy in
the room when grandma veloy started talking about

cutest mama within miles