wanna know what's absolutely nuts?
my life is going to start soon! like, it's really gonna start and i'll be experiencing real life!
though i am 18, and technically an adult, i still live at home and am still in high school which is really bittersweet.
i am SO excited to get out of the laughable education system we call public school, but at the same time, i can't imagine life without it: friday night football games, parties, ditching class, being on dance company. my life consists of all of these things and in about 4 months, it'll all be over forever. 4 of the most important years of my life will be over within 4 months. THAT, my friends, is wacko.
the worst part about this stage of life though, isn't being sick of high school or the people you've been stuck with for 4 years. it's the questions from family members who you only see once a year at the christmas party, like
"what are you going to study?"
"are you going on a mission?"
"where are you going to live?"
"where are you going to work?"
"are you dating anybody?"
those questions are so scary! do they not realize i'm 18? that i still go to parties and dance my heart out and stay up til the early hours of the morning with my best friends? how am i supposed to determine my life in just a few decisions? well i've decided that i'll never really know what i want to be. i'll be a spunky 70 year old and i still will have a new idea of what i want to be when i grow up. if there's one thing i do know, though, it's that i want to be a mommy. more than anything in the whole world. i couldn't imagine a future for myself without a mr. whatevermylastnamewillbe and our little tiny humans running around the house.
it's so crazy that i'm gonna be a real big kid soon. i'm excited. painfully, bitterly excited.
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